The story of my dark life..

jokes

2011-09-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

hmmm...i think i stop thinking about girls for awhile now..it more i think what i have around me...not like i gave up on chasing it that..it not happening and it never will..i stop caring for it..and also stop being nice to it..because nothing comes out of it...so yeap that the way it goes now..well back on the track...whenever i think about it..this comes out..whenever i try to say to a girl..that i fell in love with her...and bla bla..you know the process..it always the same..expression "Are you joking? you fell in love with me? nahh you are just another "friends" " look...i aint joking...why would i joke on this sort of stuff..but then again..it all the same anyway..i expected that answer..but wait..can any other guy treat you the same? if all the ones you met were jerks as you said...no i aint saying i m the best..but i m the worst of em all..after a few of this situation i just think " if it dont come..then it alright.." it really a pain..whenever someone ask why are you always emo..there nothing else for emo except this...look i fail with girls and also friends..i dont have many...but then i think all this while there was just one girl who always right beside me since 3 year ago..she never left my side..and always try to bully me n stuff..i think i never chose the wrong course else as she said..i would never have met her...she the only girl i realli realli trust...maybe because she went through the same thing as i did...but so far she the only girl that is always here...how ironic..5 years ago i said.."this will all change someday..you all will leave 1 by 1.." and it happen 5 year later...

no one ever take what i said for seriously..they think i m just bullshitting...now you guys saw what happen?? people part way..but if they are real..they will leave a shadow behind for you to remember...but if it werent you will never even remember them...

i would like to point out..sometime i m not realli a sociable person...but then again i m not a realli noticeable guy until someone try to point out " there someone dark over there.." well it was always like that...no one remembers...nor will they ever be...

After...

2011-07-28T00:29:00.002+08:00

What was once a great time...become what known as..the dark past in one point of life...hmmm...well people said..i never really looking..but do you guys really understand the point that i m standing on? i doubt you do..honestly and seriously....till now i have yet to found..the light in the darkness..well...you would say " have you really try changing yourself? maybe that was problem?" well as a matter i did for a short period of time...but then i realize..if people don't really understand you or even at least try to do so..why bother adding another piece of problem to the already...mountain size of problem...maybe one of em was..i never try to tell anyone what i m going through..because...i m afraid it will lead to another problem...well i don't really know if..aah nevermind..

for what was once a hope..

has now become a shattered memories..

for this memories..will forever remain a scar..

this scar will mark the pain..the suffering and the torment i went through...

the moment i fought against what was known as..darkness..

where it finally leads to nothing but being consumed by more..

love was nothing but a mere sadness and pain...

what does love really signify?? i do not know the answer...

as what i have felt..was pain..and pain alone..

the pain in the chest...that has yet to lifted of this chest of mine..

where it bleeds..and bleeds for nonstop over the time..

where is? the cure..where is the lights?

the past..the present..the future

2011-06-10T17:20:00.002+08:00

hmmm....oh well nothing much...i been dragging this feeling for too long now..if you don't see the point in continuing doing so..for what do you continue? for what do you fight..if there isn't any reason for you to fight in the first place...if there nothing to fight..to be protected..why waste time? was what i think..i been thinking maybe there a slight hope there..but maybe i was wrong..what i couldn't see was already been told to me a long time ago..yet i never listen till today...so..i will leave this box here...buried in the deep...whether that time come or not..i will not know..for now..i can only move on with what i have...

if you are once again redirected here by the awesomeness of that idiot...well ntg i can say..this it it..

i want the answer...

2011-05-31T20:45:00.002+08:00

you know..i m happy that she finally give up on that guy (assuming she halfway i guess)...well yea i m happy..but the guy that she like is still not me..even though..i hinted her all along..i felt like a retard..talking to a stone...a stone that would not understand what you say or even show..until it get broken in the end...blaming everything..you during all this time..i never expected anything..i never expected a result from what i m doing...since i m doing it of my own free will..no one force me to...because i believe in miracle..that one day she would realize..that all along there a good guy around her..that always around her..that would not be mad at her..even if she did not follow any of that advice..and always forgive her...i dont know how many guy can tolerate all of it..i dont really know..there always a good guy around you...but you just chose not to accept that he existed..

you know i waited for you..all this while..you think i m not in pain watching you suffer guys after guys...i gave you advice..warning..you dont get any of it..instead you listen to the others who say the same thing as me...i dont mind..it that part about you that i like..i tolerated every other guys that you like..because that your choice..

wishing one day you would realize..that the guy you were looking for were all along here..right beside you..when you needed him..he always there..when you needed someone to talk to..he always..always there...even when it night he came flying for you...

he never say no..to you..to him..your are very precious gem..that he wanted..but he can never keep it..because no matter how hard he works..he can never get near the gem..not because it was too expensive...but because it was hard to look for it..because everytime he near it..it will be gone...but the owner/buyer was never him..for some reason...maybe it not his time yet to buy it..or maybe the gem just doesnt suit him..that it might be destined that he will never get that gem...and the gem just get bought and sold..but everytime he there to buy it..it was not there anymore...

The new road..

2011-05-27T18:07:00.002+08:00

well thinking back...maybe what i have now is not bad at all..even though i don't get the approriate title..i don't really mind..ah well..after months of thinking and more thinking..i finally get it..ah well..you know i can't never walk away from it..there reason why i stick around...the reason was that..i has fallen too hard over her..that i love her so much that i couldnt get out from it..ahaa..maybe she know that as well..i don't know for sure..if that what she thinks or maybe just me..ah well..i will just let time do it works...

the wound that once hurts..

no longer bound any pain...

all if left are memory of the past..

the distant stars i once dream of..

have finally shown itself..

all that left..

is to reach that stars ..

to get what i have been looking for..

to break this curse..

that has existed long..

for long that i have yet remember..

for you i will do anything..

i will not walk away..

even if i might get hurt..

i might die..

i will walk for you...

because you are the only one..

the only one where i admit..

that i have love you too much

to let go now..

would mean to die..

The me that i dont understand...the unreal me that i live with..

2011-05-16T01:36:00.002+08:00

hmmm....well okay..i been in and out of..liking someone..for the past year..i been..wandering aimlessly one girl after another..searching for the other part of me..someone who will be there for me..but i realize..those are girls i find out of desperation..i m sorry if one of you ever read this..yes i was desperate to get one..maybe because of the people around me..i seen my friends going in and out of relationship...sometime when it comes relationship problem i cant solve any of it..because i dont even understand the simple word..love..i dont know what it takes to understand...how it feels to fully love someone..give them all the trust..love..they need..to tell you guys again..i..once been in one..maybe fake relationship..nothing was form between us..i knew it..but i waited..it never came..until i found out she was the same...she was just using me as something to get over her ex..i found out..and that was it...that was just..puppy love or stuff like tat..that was the past..after that i been struggling to find someone who will love me who i m..accept all the fact about me..and make me change..there werent any..none..up until today..i finally know what it mean shed tears for girl..do everything for her...try your best to make her happy..but in the end..i was expecting too much once more...as saying goes...to love is something that doesnt guarantee anything in return..worst you might not get anything..but to accept the fact that you tried to love her..and not expecting anything in return...

i been doing everything for her...everything i never did to anyone..in fact no one..she was the first for everything...i give my best all to her...but it turn out...i was not the one..in fact maybe i am just one of the many best friend she had...i..wish that we were more then that..i wish to be with her...despite what everyone said..i ignore all of it..because i accept that part about you...everyone looking at a different window..but the window i am looking at..is full of picture of you...if you happen to see this..so be it..i just want you to know..i will be there for you..whenever and wherever...and i m sorry...for bad things i might have spout to you..i just want you to know..that i cared for you..that all..

The world might have millions of other girls better than you...but you are perfect to me..i dont need any of the other girls...as long as it you..

you might find it creepy this coming from me..haa..maybe because i m a freak afterall..i aint any good looking guys..because i dont want someone to like just that...

Bastard luke

2011-05-06T13:57:00.001+08:00

well...in the dark i never wish this blog to be this dark..= =" but i have decided to throw everything in here so yea..and now that..some might have come in and say "emo blog" i dont give a shiet...not like u guys come here because you want to...most probably it luke fault for spamming the links so yea..wateva anyway...

Her

2011-04-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

Well..i don't know why you guys said.."there better one out there.." well there is...for every girls you chose..there always a better version of it...there even a better version of yourself...but whether someone is good enough for you...it all depend on you yourself...i have never found any girl as amusing as her...i would rather said..she the 1st one that i really really liked after years of questioning myself with tons of question...say what you want about her...i know..i know everything..

but everything just broke down all over again..

i should have wake up from this dream..

you know..i gave you everything..

but you never appreciate any of it..

not like every girls are bad..

but you..i trusted you..

i accepted the part about you..

but you have once again fail to proof what you said..

you said promises and such are never real..

forever doesnt exist..

but..have you realized?

there always someone waiting for you..

even when you were with that guy..

even when you talk with him...

when you did everything to him..

this guy tolerated all of it...

all of which no guy can take it..

i shed tears...blood...trust..

but in the end..

what have you given me?

nothing...

nothing but lies...

more lies...

but i tolerated it..stand against it..

believing one day you would realize...

no one will do this much for you...

how many guy can stand and watch you happily with another guy?

how many guy can give you the freedom you wanted so much?

how many guy...would shed their tears for you?

how many guy...would tolerate all the lies you give em?

most importantly...how many would never back down despite all this?

there aint much...in the end..

i can only stand by in a distance..watching you..

happily with another guy..

but i would not stop that..

as i know..your smile matter the most...

even if you dont give a damn to me...

in the end..your smiles is all i want to see..

i..cant do much...i know..

my own limits..

i m just a nobody...to you..

i might just a guy who you can talk to...

you might not think much...

that all...your smiles is all i want to see...

i wish you all the best..

you might not see this..

in my heart i have always been wishing you the best..

so that one day you can show a meaningful and truthful smiles..

not the mask you are hiding behind..

Thanks..for holding on...with a nobody like me..

thanks..

what i want...

2011-04-12T15:42:00.003+08:00

hmm...2 weeks after incident..i have began to go back to neutrality...and i m happy with it...sometime i think...only my closest friends actually know i m there...and i wonder..how many girls would think of you the way you think of them??...even if i say.." you know i miss you...alot..i feel like i been missing something and it was you all along" they will just ignored it...you know i never had..someone who said they actually miss me...i m..just insignificant in their life perhaps...maybe it was my luck that i might not end with anyone...aint too bad..i can fool around as much as i want...looking back..even if i change...nothing else will...all that people wants..are just what i had to offer...not what i m made of..it sadden me to see it..you..yes you...how many guys would say the same? to you? how many actually tolerated you this much? how much freedom can other offer?..you know..all i want is that.." i love you" that all..i trusted you..but you just had to break it...that trust not my heart...as it was already broken..i trusted that you could mend it..but you never felt the same...i m sorry..

Slowly..

2011-04-08T11:02:00.002+08:00

thinking back..maybe it was just me who thinking too much on this stuff...she never really cared what i do...she never give a shiet..but i care for her so much..and i get nothing..it such a mystery that you fall for some guy you just know for less den a month..and not the guy who were always there for you when you need them...but you just pretend you didn't saw him, but why? why you never tell me how it was? is it hard to tell the truth? i m sick of you hiding it from me..and finally i m digging it myself...

In the End..all i get was..

2011-04-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

I don't know why..and i don't know how..all i know was..i tried my best to get her..i admit maybe i wasn't good enough..but..i been trying for months..and nothings..i went through hurricanes to get this close..yet..i m a non existing object in her eyes, someone who is not getting anything for that he has done, you know..all i want to know..is the answer to all that i have done..am i still someone in her mind? do i still exist in her eyes...finally..i know...i m just no one...a no one who is only a someone when i m needed..a no one when there nothing else..

I just want you to know..i did everything that i did not ever done to any girls in my life..i want you to know..i really do love you..but you never realize that..i went through all the walls just to get close to you...but..what have you shown me? All you did was...ended up with someone you known not far off the distance right off the bat...even when you are with him..i feel slight pain..but now it no longer bothers me..because i trusted all yours words..for what you said...but all of it was a lies..even though i know it was all along a lies..i know you will fall for him..it only a matter of time...i will not said anything about that..it your call..your decision..when you said "Forever doesnt exist" do you know why?

It because you yourself have a quick change of heart..so how could forever last?...you said waiting for you was also a lie..but i did that i waited for you..when you were with some other guys...i waited..i drop my tears for you..i ignored what everyone said...in the end..what they said was right...my fights are not with you...but it was not my time yet..

i will accept all that happen right till this moment..a dream that i have live in...i thank you for all your time...you have given me something that i have not felt in years...

whatever it is that you do or choose..i m always with you...and i will pray for you..that what you chose is the right one.

I..know when someone lie to me..i know when is the time to quit...and this is the time that i quit...good bye..

Is it hard??

2011-02-28T23:24:00.003+08:00

You know all i wish for..was to end this thinking of getting in love, it hurts..i want to forget..forget everything..even forgetting myself...is it hard to find a girl who did love you for who you are...talking to you day and night..caring for you..help you to cheer up when your down..do funny thing with you, and spend some of her time with you, you know..those are what i see..not what i do..it only appear in my dream...all i want is a girl who love me as much as i do love them...i been trick and used by girls...i never got anything in return..maybe to love is not to expect anything in return...but accept what they offer...are there any thing that actually real in my life?? i just don't know..

Girls

2011-02-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

Hmm...how long has it been..well today i gonna tell you throughly about girls..

you know..i never been successful on finding the right girl for my life..maybe i enjoy getting rejected watsoever...i been in and out of a rejected scenes..well at least i try to achieve what everyone afraid off..confessing to them..most of us afraid of getting rejected, i do too..but it just i been rejected so much it doest really matter anymore..it cleared my mind off her..that for sure..

Girls, are really random and sometime wish they get more then what they wanted, ever wonder why that hot girl you know, never ended with anyone? but tons of guy try to get her? that cause, they wanted more, n more, till they are satisfied, they will never have enough to dig out of one guy, they the perfect guy even though in the first it doesnt exist..i myself know, i m incompetent..heck i never had good quality in me..and i m working to get it fix...i don't really care if i ended up single for the rest of my life...i just wanna be me, if other cant accept it..so be it..

i don't really know..do i realli love that girl for real or am i just following my old self..i really want to change..but never had the reason to..because i lost my heart and my trust to this being call girls...don't give me the "it not your time yet" crap..that a bullshit...one don't put their life on time..time don't wait for you, in the end you gotta do it yourself, i know as my friend said, i show my weak self and not my strong self..because i have lost everything...my heart can no longer accept the reality of this...me myself is not young anymore..time flies..i gotta grow up..

i want to live my life the way i want it to be..not how others think of the outside me...i want to be myself both inside n outside...screw those who think i m fat n ugly i dont realli care much..say what you want...i m me..dont like it just fuck off..

meh post of da months..or year or..oh nvm..

2010-09-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

so..i m almost 20 huh...wow..time sure pass by fast..i still remember those days in high school..where trouble is just my best partner..and day in day out..played for whole years..exam?? fu*k off..teacher?? it just a bother...having doing troubles in school..sumtime make me forget of all my sickness..it just plain fun in my mind..i wish those days could come back...now i m in degree..things just dont look too....good..i hope it turn out well..gota hang on...wish me luck!! =D..

All about the me thingy..

2010-07-19T01:30:00.003+08:00

well to start it off..i have finally know why..i have always been emo about girls..you see..the point is that..it like when you are small..you see your parents or someone else driving a cars you would say " hey when i m big enough i wanna drive a car" after you know how it feels..you just feel.."it kinda boring" for me it almost the same..ok..for starter..how many of you have already experience how to feel to have a bf/gf?? i mean it aint weird to have a bf/gf around 14 or 15..or even kissing at that age..for me..i never done any of it..i felt like i been always pushing myself too hard to get it...i never had those looks..those courage to know a girl..most people that i know are mostly guys..i mean hey..i just have like less then 10 girls that i really know well..ok to be honest..i just like every girl i see..because i been lying to myself...and you know what..i m afraid of girls now...i just tend to avoid them now...right now i just feel like..girls are not what i always thought it was..for 4-5 years..i been trying to free myself from the past..yet i m still binded by this chain...for whoever girls reading this..i m sorry that i m such a a**holes in the pass...by trying to impress you girls..i m just stupid anyway..maybe it just because i have never been through it..that i will never be able to understand this last piece of puzzles...but to a certain girl that i like right now..i would just say..i really do love you..no it not a joke..i really really do..i havent been able to tell you..because i m afraid that once i tell you..you would runaway from me...i already tons of girl ignoring me...and i have no idea...if given a chance..i would say to you..i love you..even if you hate me...this is the true i been hiding...and for girls that i might have scared away..sorry lots...never meant too..maybe i m just too selfish..i never been truly in love..till i realise it over the years..that i been seeing u..i m off..part 2 comin soon..

it high time..=P

2010-04-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

finally..decided to update..this blog is going become once in a blue moon update..was kinda lazy..but demonic girl aka elle was nagging me.."update laa fatty.." oh well..thing been going pretty smooth or a little rough i guess..

Just finish exam about a month ago...was finally relieve..but..i gota resit 1 subs..well...doesnt really bother me much..as it quite easy..why i fail??i dont know...you know they saying..it rains when you least expected it..and so bam..it falls on me...

what about life itself??nah..well thing is just like normal..i mean..it just goes and comes..when i finally admit it..it was too late to turn back..i knew i m a dummy..but..after awhile it just get knocked out cold..and now i m thinking..do i really really like her..or am i just desperate??that it turns out i m lying to myself..that i really do like her..after awhile i finally get it..this whole damn time..i was really aiming for one..and i m trying my best now..i dont wanna be too pushy..this might be a joke but..i fail more then anybody else..and i know what happen when thing get too pushy..well either way..i feel like dropping it all behind..and work towards what benefit me..and not what dragging me down..well..let this ended..

about study...already ended my foundation..and right now i m planning to do network and computer engineering..but since i m in a different course..(since it in engineering..and i m in another one) i dont know whether it will be ok for me to get in..if cant..i might change to other coll..but that in the future..

as i m right now..i dont think i m ready for it..this might be on hold..and who knows..i might met someone new..but i still cant forget her...well..it will work out somehow..

FUUUUUUU RAGGGGGGGGEEEEEE!!

2010-01-19T13:28:00.002+08:00

what a luck man...some idiot told me there class today..(i shall not declared that idiot name here..) wake up blurry..go to coll..freakin jam..for 1 n a half hour..nvm..still reach..reach adi..found out class empty...call one of my fren..so find out..thr aint no class today...goooood..call my mum..but she didnt bring phone wit her..bagussss....nvm..i go 1u wait...FREAKIN ARCADE ATE 3 OF MY COIN!!cb..go counter ask..the aunty say..technician not yet come need wait..okay..i can live with tat..1 hour pass..no sign of em..the aunty call me go counter..okay so i say..finally she give back my coin..i go thr..she gave me 1 coin..i was like...WTF??!! she say..not correct ah??den i say..aunty too late jor laa..u see got ppl play adi...she say??huh??so??i say..i put 3 coin in..game required 3 coin..i put..but it ate 1 of my coin..and juz now i need 1 more coin to play but that ppl playing adi so ineed back 3 coin..she say..den u wait technician laa...FUUUUUU RAGGGGGGEEEEEEEE!! GIME BACK EARLY MAI SETTLE LAA PUKIMAK!!LIKE I CHEAT HER LIKE TAT!!I COME SO DAMN MANI TIME AND THIS I WAT I GET!!FUCK!! damn freakin piss off today....

unlimited tears..endless pain..

2009-09-01T03:41:00.002+08:00

well merdeka to malaysia..yay..or nt..whew...4 am sleep again...hmm..realli starting to wonder if i m havin problem myself..or nt..lately a bunch of idiots are starting to get on my nerve..my mood isnt realli good tis few days..due to certain problems...for me wat else if it isnt my good old love problem...oni tis time..it kinda hurt...well my frenz always say i oni like a girl temporary and forget them the nxt days..yea they r rite..but tis time..my heart realli hurt alot...wen i see tat she getting along well wit sumone else...it like million of needle started to pierce through it...wen i m close to her..my heart will start to beat real fast...and sumtime i m juz breathless wen i see her smile...i realli wonderin..is tis wat they called love struck?? but rite nw..no matter how close i m wit her..it wun go any further den tat anymore...it..realli painful to let it go...i dun wanna let her go..but...i cant do anything anymore..i juz dunno wat to do anymore...everytime i wanted to get closer..those bad experience juz come backstabbing me telling me..no u cant..if u do it..she might be scared of u..so i retreated...but every steps tat i take juz seem endless...i feel like it juz wont work out...it like the sky and the land..they might nv touch each other..but can only see from afar..my heart is crying out loud..i juz dunno wat to do anymore..everytime i m wit her..i m juz scared..tat it might happen again...i could juz see her from afar...but..my heart can longer take the pain...it too much...juz too much...wat shud i do??i m realli lost in tis jungle of love..every steps is a steps away from her..why..

those days have gone by...

2009-08-29T00:35:00.003+08:00

damn lately so damn sienz..keep go dig out old game to play..xD...or it juz me..escaping this madness maze of mine...haha..yea..my car is back..either way i wont be using it nw...scared later kena my mum bazooka me again...zzz..always bring out the past..like my bunch of idiotic frenz..keep bring out those embarrasing past..well..there no victory if there no losers..well i m losers..haa..why??because what i did always fails...EPIC FAILS!!! ahh damn..i feel like..giving up on girls..and juz keep moving along this lonely road till i reach the ends..but..i juz dunno how long can i last like this..before i break down halfways...sometime people always say.." ahhh i so lonely..juz oni breakup.." while i m juz thr..." yea rite..like u noe wat is lonely..." ppl juz dunno how to appreciate wat is infront of them...instead they will juz jump all the way to the conclusion..i m realli piss off at ppl who would juz simply say " i m lonely"..i been lonely for over 2-3 years..while sum juz a month or 2..they would start saying lonely...den wat about me??i wasted half of my life..alone..while others..half of their life alredi tasted wat it feels to have someone close by..listening to your problems..and give u a hug wen u needed one..i nv get any of those..yet i m nt complaining like bitch..(or yea i did..i deserve it..) i sumhow juz dun understand anymore wat it meant to be lonely...i dunno wat my this alone feeling means anymore...it realli is unbearable..seeing how everybody can taste wat is love..while i m left out of tis stuff..i think i m juz so "outdated" haha...well i m nt treating love as a game...love need a long commitment..and strong desire and feelings for each others...i m nt looking to have love juz to feels it...it juz cant be explained with words...as i havent felt wat it like..to have sumone special by your side..to those who still hook up...good luck and appreciate it..as u wun noe..wen the next one is gonna come..dun be like me..i juz a total fail to be a guy..i dun even deserve to live..i shud juz die off the corner alone...haa...man..because i m late..as always..now once again i fail at getting her...my heart is once again..stopped beating...wen it will start again..i juz dunno..i m getting tired of my life..i feel like ending it...it juz i feel...it meaningless i keep on living...tat wat i feel...damn..

yosh!!ore nanda??!!

2009-08-27T04:01:00.003+08:00

alrite..wat the time nw..ooh 4 am..still nt yet sleep..ah well..holiday for 1 month ++ gonna die laa oi..summore no car for me drive..sienz dou ahh..haiz my car ah??kena ppl hit and run laa..deng..***k tat guy..no license wan drive car wtf...haiizz...ah well today my mum say..insurance approve adi..so it juz a matter of days before it come back..so..it time for...1U MADNESS!!!WEEEHOOO..no realli..i gonna die laa..aii..another reason for sleeping so late..been thinkin about tis particular someone..(yes it a girl..no more gayness..no i m serious...) well..yea..i knew her for years...yet..i nv make a move..becoz i hesitate..she been taken by other...u noe..1 steps late is 1 steps of regret..yea..it true...and nw..again it happen..whenever i like someone..i nv make a move..becoz of wat happen in the past..i juz dun wan history da repeat..everytime i think about it..it make me..shiver in cold and darkness..and due to lack of girl knowledge..i nv been able to communicate well with girls...as with my experience..i oni have one..even that..i dun tasted wat it truly feels to have love...as my feeling been played around with by my ex..i m glad i ended it..becoz it doesnt bring happiness..i oni brings more regret den pain...about this girl i like..she realli a great person..nice personality..(or sumtime..a little out of the nice eh??haa..) mature and a great decision maker..(considering how my group always.."hey let go out eat" and den i will say "where??" and den "erm i dunno whr??" things like tat..) i guess that wat attracted me...but sumhow...i guess she juz too far away for me reach...and now becoz i m too late..everything go crashing down the drain again...haa..epic fail..*face palm* sumtime i juz think..it juz dont workout..everytime i m with a girl or chatting wit everything will juz end in less den a minute...my whole life..had been a disaster with girls..i mean..when did i ever get a success?? i mean all girls would juz stay away from me...(yea be honest with urself girls..if ur readin tis..haha..) or it juz my own fault...always hoping for things tat are impossible..everybody say "your time will come when you meet her.." yea..meet her..meet wat??i dun even see a shadows..not even a glimpse of it..so how do u expect it?? i juz feel like giving up...seeing how everybody goes well with girls..while i all leftout in the corner..it juz feels..lonely...

DevilShinz
hmm..wow quite long..guess there 1st time for everything..been realli...emos while writing this..if kang saw this he gonna go elmo pissing me off again..ah well...time to go sleep...haha..Nitez everyone..

woow..

2009-08-18T15:24:00.002+08:00

alrite..been awhile since i last updated..and kristine keep telling me to update..haha..alrite..well my life the usual...heh..but lately..got sick..ah well ntg big juz your average fever and flu..and no it not h1n1 alrite??who the one who spread it u ask??our very own bmw boss...and now whole gang got sick..luckily everybody recovered...well the next time someone get sicked..get at least 2km away from me..i dun wanna get sick again..u bastard...hmm..alrite i will share wit u guys sumthing..lately i been thinking alot of this particular girl...hmm..ah well..who is tis girl??guess tis will be a secret...ah well..probably u alredi guess it..and IT A NO!!heh...oh well..everybody take care now..this weird flu been spreading around alot...if u got one.dun worri..it not h1n1..i repeat not h1n1 unless u started showing weird symptom..then..best of luck man..heh...

Japan festival Don obori

2009-07-19T02:13:00.002+08:00

alrite..today i skip my assignment plan..and hang out wit my frenz...well since they wanted to go to some japanese festival..yea why not..as i nv been to one..been awhile since i last go sumwhr else other den 1 utama...which almost every week u could see me thr..alrite..the festival is realli sumthing...we go thr around 4..reach around 5 i guess...plus..the shitty train air con is broken..extremely hot..this is wat they called as..malaysia fail in everything..ah well..we met up with william friend(aka wei lim) from college..and go thr after that..wow it big...the amount of ppl..are like ants when i stand at the stadium balcony..well some of them are dancing..and thr also alot of ppl wearing kimono..sum of them are realli cute and pretty..yea thr mani babes thr as well...but...i dont have guts to get their nums...>.<>.< sadly i din..anyway..it a realli fun day..wit lotsa..babes!! so anybody..who had frenz..intro dem to me ya!!haha..

P.S
chan sing and 2 more guys were thr..but they went home early..coz they got sick of the environment..and china brain was complaining non stop....since he had no brain...haha

boredom ver 2

2009-07-05T21:30:00.002+08:00

hmm..recently..alot of tis stuff keep popping up in my head..alrite here we go..

When life is about making it better,people tend to forget what around them
When people keep forgetting what help them to get through life,everything will seem to be falling apart..
What's life..without friends and family..What's love without someone who think about you heavenly day and night and be your side...most of all..What is memory..if there nothing to be remembered..
Mistake are meant be made...
Without mistake there will be no Correction..
Without losing..there will be no victory...
but for me...who had most of it...but not one of them...that is Love...
Love is a feeling...not for people to express..but to keep in their heart..
for the one they chose..will know...he/she love him so much..that they wouldn't let it go..
but for some..love is just a game...
those who treat love as a game..is not a human..they are monster...
love has the power to make everything seems...peaceful...
but some abuse the power of love..to destroy things...
but for me..i had never gotten love from the person i love...
even though i had my parent love..and friends love...i didnt have the person i love...
but..having someone to give to...is more then enough for me..
if love comes my way..i will just accept what it offers...

now...= =" i written with my own feeling...it might be confusing....but..it juz a rough sketch of how my feeling look like...so...dont come flaming my face...!!THANKS FOR READING!!

boredom ver 1

2009-06-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

hmm...well..lately nothin realli happen...juz been hanging alot...and...I FORGOT ASSIGNMENT!!SHIT!! haha...yea...goin da die soon...everytime i wanted to do it..someone will and drag me to sumwhere else...lol..oh yea...juz recently watch monster vs alien..kinda funny..i like B.O.B...coz..he brainless...and yet..he can be smart and funny sumtime..haha...(google MvA Bob)and..yesterday watch..Drag me to hell...shit...dat movie..WAS SCARY!!!!damn....nw it make me wanted to go heaven more....ah well..i dunno wat i gonna end up..and dun wanna think...heh..ahh i wanna watch transformer...dun u agree too??xD

lyrics yo..

2009-06-09T21:48:00.004+08:00

Sent a letter with no one in mind
This feeling feel so distant
Whose song are you listening to now?
What emotion are stirred??
Can you tell me??
The rain is so Silent
Is it you crying silently??
Happiness does not come easily
I'm loving you from your shadow
I can accompany you to see stars
Nothing much need to be said
I just want to be with you
I dont ever want to leave you again
The beauty i see everytime
It's because of you

Wo Ke Yi-Evan Yo

Well..i write it because..someone to inspired me..xD..ah well..enjoy!!
P.S
it quite some romantic song..so..look it up in youtube!!

moody..

2009-06-07T11:27:00.002+08:00

hmm...well..i think i wanna give up on girls...zz...eveytime i try approaching them..they juz..disappear for my sight...everytime they in need of sumthin..i would be the first one on their list..wen i m nt needed..they are all gone..zzz...i cant bear get my heart hurt like tat...the last time i tried sumthin like tat...i ended up scarin them lol...so from den on..i nv do anythin like tat...but lately..i juz been realli lonely...wanted to find sumone tat understand me..be my side....but..i juz failed to do it...everytime wen i see happy couple walkin along da mall..it juz make me jealous...even my frenz..always hang around with their gf...the teasin and stuff...realli make me jealous....it been mani years...since i last have sum friendly girl....wonder whr are they all....

My trip 3

2009-06-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

hehe..here part 3..dang couldnt upload more...xD...thr mani..but..i lazy wanna upload all..realli like the view..was in the highest part of the hill..it was a temple...quite cool...but tat day was hot with wind blowing all around...zzz...

my trip 2..

2009-06-05T20:36:00.003+08:00

Da Nitez sky..xD

Stairs linking the 2 temple..high...

Ice-cream shop..no open TnT HOT!!

alrite..since i cant put mani pic..zz..part 2 is here..hmm..well do ya notice a building like hse in da previous pic??whr it covered in many trees..xD..yup tat the restaurant i went to dinner..xD..kinda a great place..to enjoy dinner and nice view of the city..xD..

My trip..

2009-06-05T20:27:00.002+08:00

hmm...well i juz got back...haha..was sum trip..except..I FORGOT MY ASSIGNMENT!!!damn...1 week break realli not enuf..haha..anyway here da pic..xD..anyway...alrite..time da go..assignment waitin..lol..well...for my trip..i m nt realli happi...xD..probably...becoz of certain prob..lol..

lol..

2009-06-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

ah well..been rainin alot lately..or so i guess..since it been realli damn hot damn...damn finally study break..but the assignment..ARGHHH!!like mountain..coz i lazy do..>.<

P.S it from my genting trip month ago..xD..the 2 girl stalker...hehe..beware..

hmm...

2009-05-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

ah..damn..kinda bored..tomolo havin midterm exam..yet..i oni read abit..as my mind clouded by someone...ah well..i wanna drop it..but i cant..somehow my brain keep on bringing it up..i dunno y...ah damn..i realli dunno if i am realli in love...or am i nt...i dunno hu am i anymore...u realli wanted da say..i love her..but..i dun wanna rush it..and make her scared..as those happen in the past...i dun wanna let go of her...well....*banging my head against the wall* ah well..time da read books...

hmmm...

2009-05-24T00:19:00.003+08:00

alrite..time to add some changes..xD..ahh kinda bored today...see so mani ppl blog colourful with picha..xD..while mine juz emoing around..so i decided..i will make it interesting..xD..hehe...

cool star eh??lol my frenz with nothin da do..take the picture while i m drivin to 1u..swt..more pic to come!!WAIT FOR IT!!

Those days...

2009-05-22T18:10:00.002+08:00

for 4 years..i been finding myself a special one..but juz wen i though...i m goin for it...thr tis huge barrier appear rite infront of me...for 4 years..i had been wanderin aimlessly...and i finally found the road...but..i stop not even halfway...i realli do like her..i m nt jokin...but..i have no idea..wat i m goin to do...as i dunno is she avoidin me or wat...i juz dunno wat to do anymore...i wanted to cry...but i cant...becoz my feeling holdin me back..tellin me not to give up...but i dunno how to go anymore...i cant break through it...so i kinda stuck...damn...juz kinda miss her badly....realli badly...i feel like..i can die anytime soon if i dun see her....i juz hope she will soon be here...damn...

wow..college life..and 1st update..xD

2009-05-17T17:59:00.003+08:00

alritez man...been awhile since i am back here...look like many of my frenz started blogging alredi xD...(dunno wat virus hit them though..) ah well..college life been abit too relaxing or so i guess..(with assignment which is as tall as a klcc on my list..xD)well...still cant find any gf...(or i am workin on it..hu noes..it a secret..xD)well...so either way...for those who startin college this month..gud luck man with orientation from hell...ah well...GUD LUCK!!

well look like startin nxt week..gonna one hell of bzy week...gota rush my assignment(although it easy..i tend to be lazy....xD..wat lazy ass..xD)alrite...time to go..

lonely...

2009-01-05T01:21:00.002+08:00

ah well..this week..been hell of week..workin juz make realise alot of thing i been missing out...well seem like the clock started to move again..and it a gud thing..one after another problem solve..but juz one problem remain to stay still...my manager teach me one thing...we need persuade ppl to believe in us..and we need to move on..even if it impossible..it can be possible..the problem remain in urself..to whether move the box or not....still...many wishes seem to break out....rite now i realli wish i have sumone by my side...supporting me....but...i wonder if i will ever get one.....i want to have those feeling...i dun wanna stay alone for the rest of my life....i juz wanted someone..to be by my side...but...it juz seem to be too big of a wish...if god juz grant me this wish....i will change...anything....damn it...

P.S
i wont give up....life is a circle..and circle can be broken...

ahh..alot of thing happen this year...

2008-12-30T22:12:00.002+08:00

well..seem like lately problem juz keep popping out one after another....nv ending problems..well either way..seem like everything juz started to move along on it own...except for the one problem that i couldnt solve...well i juz hope it will get along sum day soon...well...out there...so mani girls...maybe..it will juz appear one day..i hope so...well i aint realli a stand out among all of my frenz...and also not a mani girl type of guy....so...juz hope...there is one for me...as for me life is juz goin around..found myself a job...= = sell all sort of stuff...at 1u..if anyone walk by there..or anything..dun forget to come visit me..(give u sum discount..xD) hehe...it call InQbox..so remember to drop by..xD

P.S
wont be online for quite sum time i guess...ah wateva..gud luck to myself!!

ah..xmas..

2008-12-25T12:55:00.002+08:00

ok..my 5th year of lonely xmas..yay!!= =" yea i noe it weird...well on either way...many ppl juz seem to be complaining "ah..lonely xmas.." = = wat about me...ah well anyway...i juz wanna let tis year be on it way...dun wanna think all those old stuff...let enjoy tha new life!!yay!!lonely life!!wooot!! = =" wat so fun about lonely anyway...ah well let it be...i gonna be lonely for quite some year anyway...haizz...

another one of my days....lol

2008-12-16T23:44:00.003+08:00

every single day...all i have is ntg but bad luck falling on me...maybe it juz how thing goes...or not...well anyway..today is job hunting day...so i went hunting...= =" after a few hunt..most of them is..girl job.. = = i wonder if sumday king is gonna be a girl...and queen is gonna be a boy..lol..becoz most job..is a girl..and i manage to find 1.. = =... well i think i gonna go hunt for more soon..wen i feel like it...xD well anyway...even after spm..problem is occuring 1 by 1...everyday...sumone in my gang sure have problem..and den sum girl will sure go moody and crying for no reason..or at least i dunno wat happen...everyday..wen i go out..sure there sudden change of plan...= = got bored wit it..and everyday go moody...i wonder if tis the time..where we all go our own separate way...hmm...anyway..JOB HUNTING!!!

as for me..= =" i have no idea wat going on around...my antenna keep picking up the wrong signal..or maybe i do it always...well look like it time to get serious...even if i wanted to make sumone happi..it nv does work...becoz...the aura of darkness surround my gang..light is last thing u will mention.....xD...well..job hunting...girlfriend hunting progress..not goin anywhere wit tis face and body..= = i wonder...well anyway..gud luck to myself..and ppl who searchin for jobs like me...= = KL = keluar...xD

2008-12-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

song lyrics from nickelback-gotta be somebody
yea..i am like tat...tis song kinda show wat i feel...hehe...

if...

2008-12-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

okay...life story time..xD..well anyway...been abit down lately..due to several reason...1st one..pretty serious..girl...2nd one..my life...seem like everything juz been wrong lately..and nothing is right...sumtime..i feel like..i been walking a circle around my life..repeating wat i have done...and everything juz seem..not moving..it feel like..time is longer...and i feel like..my life is empty..sumthing is juz missing from my heart...i wonder wat is tat...man..everything juz fail...well den i guess..i cant do anything now....time to give up.....

no girls...is ever meant to be mine....

moody??

2008-12-12T00:33:00.002+08:00

i realli wanna go die...every single day...sum of my friends sure say.."sat liun" i was like...ya rite...wateva...u noe...about tis...i havent been on a any single date in my whole life....yes i admit..i do have a gf..was like 3 year ago...and we broke up..becoz we doesnt have any feel..she still love her ex..and yup...i am juz a empty heart filler...doesnt worth anything....maybe i should juz give up on girls..and be lonely for the rest of my life...maybe my ex..juz pick me...coz of pity...i dun wan stuff like tat...it juz..hurt me so much...wen a girl started avoiding and havin a fobia of me..and yup...i have lot of case like tat...juz because of how i look..everyone dream of having a perfect bf..from both faces..and appearance...i fail in both of them....so i am juz the perfect failure guy..much worse den a nerd....i feel like..hanging myself.....everyday...someone die because of love...wen i think about it...i noe why they do it..and they are some hu suicide juz because they broke up....while they have everything..they could find a new one..but there are sum..whether a he/she wanted a lover..but never get one....so wen i heard my frenz being noisy about it..i will juz say.." wanna try to be in my place??" they would juz say...u nv get one because of ur ugly face..yea suck on tat.....sumtime i can be sad from juz looking at a happi couple walking everywhere..especially after school...or holiday...seeing them happily walking together...and everything they do juz seem to be happi...well at least they can experience that...i nv done any of it...the oni thing i have done..was in love..that all....i nv done anything apart from tat....yea i noe i am not oni one...there are much more ppl with situation worse den me...but ntg feel more worse den feeling it alone..takin all the feelin together...and seeing girls walk pass by u....and end up thinking "yea she gud..." and finally not doin anything...everyday..being rejected by every girl...always the same reason " i look like a big pile of shit.." yea that wat i think about myself...i wonder how long can i hold this up..before i goes crazy....

yea f**k it...i dun care....i dunno..

another one of those "days"

2008-12-08T13:28:00.002+08:00

got myself sick again..yesterday was a quite an ok day...went to 1u yesterday..since there a game competition going on there..gone there for a peek...hehe..well it quite fun...and that also the time i got myself sick..i was thirsty..so i went to buy a drink...a large ice lemon tea..and drink there at the competition place..and there a fan there..the fan..straight at me..drinking cold water..with alot of ice..= i get sick...and when i get sick...my brain start to bringing up ideas..like..how good it is..if i have a gf at times like this..and stuff like that...and alot of problem just start appear..even after exam..my life was never peaceful..why cant i enjoy a life after school..for abit..before i start to find some work..my mom keep brag me about this and that...just kinda..stressed...even after exam..when school..she brag me about study and stuff...and when end school..she brag about work...just realli hate someone to tell me what to do...i will do it when the times is right..and she keep pushing me...just hate it..feel like killing myself..and see what will happen...everyday..a tons of stuff keep falling to me...and no one is there...when i needed someone..i never get one..always end up thinking..i am alone in this huge world..with no one around...and people oni appear..to give me more problem than it is already..fed up of my life...

Shin
stop screwing with me..just get out from my sight..

tired..moody and..boring..

2008-12-06T14:45:00.002+08:00

everything and everyone just seem to ignore me....when i woke up this morning..i was tired as hell...and my friends were calling me..well..so i went out wit them..and eat my breakfast...= =" after that...i come back...online..and..seem like my contact just look empty...find someone to chat..only to know that they wont reply me...when i am having difficult time..just where is everyone??when they problem..first one to complain to is me...when i have problem..they just seem to disappear...ah..so i wonder..how good it is to have a someone you love and care for...a gf..went i go out..seem like many people just enjoy their time with their bf/gf...while me..everyday stares at the empty space in my room..wondering...will i ever get one??when everything goes wrong..it just me...alone...everytime i wonder...where is my true love....= =" yea i know..it lame...well anyway...i just feel like goin to suicide sometime soon...

Nobody cares..nobody know...nobody...

yoo..moody...happi..confuse..all mix up..become..??

2008-12-04T19:54:00.002+08:00

this week..alot of weird things happen...well i dont wanna talk about bad stuff..bring my mood down..happy stuff is..spm is finally over..school life..ended..wat comes after that..i dont know..well then..after spm mood had come...it time to rock it!!currently my schedule is full..or maybe more then full..well then..gratz to everyone who completed their spm...hehe...well then..i guess i just wanna find a gf..= =" i wonder why..right now...i am confuse...about..where to start looking..or i just have to wait until god give me one..= =" yea..god...well den..everything it in god hands now...wateva might happen to me..it all up to my luck...

Speedstar Shin
P.S and again..kang..my english sucks...and...ah..nvm...

stories..and boringness of life...

2008-11-25T15:00:00.002+08:00

damn..sometime i am having hard time updating blog..crap internet...well anyway...spm is gonna end soon..time sure pass like speed of light..same as my blog title..xD well for those who end their spm..gratz...college life is just ahead..lol..for those who still having..good luck..bear with it a few more days!!mine gonna end in like 3 days..meaning..3 more days at school...ah well...this week everything sure goes smoothly..pass my car exam..smoothly too..althought i almost fail it...thinking it back...sure LMAO it...well i was doing my exam...i done eveything..from parking to three point turn...and i forget to give the form to the officer...end up getting laugh at..luckily i was the last one to complete my exam..and nobody is looking...well the officer was laughing...since i was doing everything..2 time..luckily i still pass...yay..finally i can drive car...but that is also where it will be started..with me being a taxi driver..= =" for my friends..shit...

Speedstar Shin

Bad days..and Good days..

2008-11-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

Well..been awhile since i updated my blog..due to several problems..well anyway..this few days..i begin to..erm..how do i explain it..i am begining to crazy for girls..lol...dont know why my inner self keep popping out...and keep thinking of having a gf..well..trying my best to forget it...this few days.. been thinking about what will happen in the near future..since spm is just like 3 more days...after that..it freedom...well work is first prioty...and plans??have a whole night and days of fun...okay back to girls problem...my friends..been talking to me about girls alot..since he having what i called as "feared of girl action"..gave him alot of advices..still it might not be working..i wonder...

Well..yea..the advices might not work...as me myself..have such problem...all i can said is..I WANT A GF BADLY!!i wanna end my life as a lonely guy with no GF experience....hope it end soon...
Kang if your seeing this..means..my grammar sucks..and English is as good as dead..okay??

Speedstar
P.S:Pls dont shortform it..especially to Kang...the idiot...

Tagged...

2008-11-23T01:09:00.003+08:00

The rules:-Link to your tagger and post these rules. List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1.Gaming is my life..without it..i as good as dead..
2.Eating alot help me improve my mood...
3.Couldnt resist the cuteness a girl show when asking for help...xD
4.Always..and i mean always..dream of having a super cute and cheerful gf...(which is impossible)
5.Had never serious in anything..(that includes..my recent exam.SPM..)
6.Like to play racing games...as i like speeding..
7.Have alot of friends..and..most of them..dont remember their names...
8.i hate to write long...

Tag:
1.Michael
2.Eugene

-You-
Name:Shu sheng
Nickname:Shin
Name you wish you had:have no idea...
What do people mistake your name as:Sushi
Birthday: 13th September 1991
Birthplace: Kuala Lumpur
Time of Birth: Wasn't told, important?
Single or taken: Never had a GF..for like..my entire life...
Zodiac:Virgo

-Your Appearence-
How tall are you: 178cm
Wish you were taller: yea..
Eye colour: Black
colour you want: Red??Blue??
Natural hair colour: black and white..
Current hair colour: Black
Short or long hair: Pretty short..
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color: alot...
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair: doing the impossible...lion hair..

Glasses or Contacts: glasses...
Do you wear make up: nope...
Ever had hair extensions:gonna have one soon..xD

-In The Opposite Gender-
What color eyes: Blue..
What color: black i guess
Shy or Outgoing: outgoing
Sexy or Cute: CUTE!!
Cute.Serious or Fun: hmmm.....all of them??
Older or Younger than you: younger...
A turn on: YEA!!LET GOOO!!
A turn off: Go and get lost from my sight..before i kick the living day light out of you...
Zodiac sign:Any...

-This or That-
Flowers or Chocolate:Choc??
Pepsi or Coke: Coke zeros!!
Rap or Rock: Rock
Relationship or One Night Stand: Relationship....wait??who the heck put 1 night stand...
School or Work: Work.
Love or Money: Love.
Movies or Music: Music.
Country or City: City??
Sunny or Rainy Days: Rainy.
Friends or Family: Family.

-Have You Ever-
Lie: Some things are better left unsaid.
Stole something: maybe...
Smoked: Second hand smoking..and yes..unavoidable..
Hurt someone close to you: pretty much...
Broke someone's heart: told ya..not even once..
Had your heart broken: amazingly...the number is uncountable...
Wondered what was wrong with you: Alot...
Wish you were a prince/princess: yea..and i wish i was a handsome prince..xD
Liked someone who was taken: well...yea..alot of time
Shaved your head: gonna be doin it soon..
Used chopsticks: i am chinese..wat do u expect??
Sang in the mirror to yourself: nope..SURELY..NO!!

-Favourites-
Flower: dont know the details..
Candy: ate them when i am in extreme bad mood...
Song: Song the expresses loneliness...and jay chou song..FTW!!
Scent: dont touch them..it poisonous...
Colour: Red,Blue,Black
Movies: none...
Singer: Jay chou..
Word: yea yea..wateva..
Junk Food: everything...
Website:www.onemanga.com...
Location: My bed..
Animal: LION!!

-Misc-
Have many bad friends??:yes..a bunch of them..
Ever dream of kissing a girl infront of your friends??:yes..alot..i wanna make them..JEALOUS!!
Your typical girls:cheerful,a very open type,cute,not too naggy..,can have alot of funs..share same interest..and..i have no idea..

Well..most of them..stoled from Mikes profiles..since i have no idea...I HATE IT!!

life is like a box of chocolate??

2008-11-08T23:02:00.003+08:00

i dont know what it means..lol..juz feel like my typical words to describe myself...well..this week is just not my week and days..alot have fallen on me...girls,love,study,stress and most problematic of all...my own problem..i thought it gonna be just a brilliant week..as graduation days pass..and everybody ended up both happy and sad..and yea about graduation..took alot of pic(i suppose so..) seeing alot of people cry..teacher giving their last words about exam...and more friends that gonna leave the school..never knew why people cried..i dint...but i cried because of my own problem...i wonder...incase you wonder..yes i am extremely moody...

Speedstar Shin

Reality and Virtual..

2008-11-01T19:05:00.002+08:00

learn drive today..well it realli not my day..keep on forgetting the same thing over and over again...i was like..damn..my brain is realli...gonna fry it soon...zzzz..luckily the instructor was not so strict..was like realli cool type of person..lucki me...still...gota work on more stuff....study and driving..50 50 anyone??

Speedstar Shin

Lights..and more lights...

2008-11-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

sigh..shouldnt have put too much hope for the impossible...and getting myself hurt again..damn it..well incase you wondering...yes it girl problem again...damn it...trying to forget it now...well still today was a very dark day for me..it like everything is saying a NO!!for me...i wonder if that a sign or a curse...ah well...

Speedstar Shin

Got sick....

2008-10-26T18:18:00.003+08:00

damn it..got sick all of a sudden...when woke up..got sore throat..and now got fever...= =" dont care about it...eat medicine and went back to sleep..better abit...really bored today...wonder if there anything interesting at all...well going out to pasar malam later....let hope there something fun to do there...haha...

Speedstar Shin

Boring days...

2008-10-25T19:04:00.003+08:00

just got back from jusco with friends...since they wanna watch high school musical 3 which had just been released..so i went with them...and the movies was good...and later i found out..it kinda reflect what we are having in final year of high school..yea..remind me of it...me and my friends are having final years at school...and most of the event take place might happen sooner then i expected....well i am begining to feel a little sad already...now i know why most ppl said "school is 1 time experience..have fun with it as u have a very little time at school..." another phrase i like the most.."There are 2 types of future..the bright future..and the dark future..if u have the dark future..dont worry..as there always hope in either future..." hmmm..so there u go..my days..boring....sorry for the english error...if there one...wahahahaha...

Speedstar Shin

Years passes as days passes....

2008-10-24T21:55:00.001+08:00

yea..i know my english sucks...well so do my exam results...ok enough of the stupid exam.Started to play blog out of the blue...as...it just getting pretty...erm..what u said as..boring to death..

This few days i realised something....something that i would never even have thought about..exam and future..well so you know..i going to take SPM in like just weeks away...and i just begining to scared...of what my future will turn out to be...so i decided to do the miracle thing that i have never done before...reading books...well..seem like it not starting well...as i am not really concentrating....might as well work out last minute..i am the king of last minute after all..hahaha...ok continue it later...MUAHAHAHAHA

Speedstar Shin