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hmmm...i think i stop thinking about girls for awhile now..it more i think what i have around me...not like i gave up on chasing it that..it not happening and it never will..i stop caring for it..and also stop being nice to it..because nothing comes out of it...so yeap that the way it goes now..well back on the track...whenever i think about it..this comes out..whenever i try to say to a girl..that i fell in love with her...and bla bla..you know the process..it always the same..expression "Are you joking? you fell in love with me? nahh you are just another "friends" " look...i aint joking...why would i joke on this sort of stuff..but then again..it all the same anyway..i expected that answer..but wait..can any other guy treat you the same? if all the ones you met were jerks as you said...no i aint saying i m the best..but i m the worst of em all..after a few of this situation i just think " if it dont come..then it alright.." it really a pain..whenever someone ask why are you always emo..there nothing else for emo except this...look i fail with girls and also friends..i dont have many...but then i think all this while there was just one girl who always right beside me since 3 year ago..she never left my side..and always try to bully me n stuff..i think i never chose the wrong course else as she said..i would never have met her...she the only girl i realli realli trust...maybe because she went through the same thing as i did...but so far she the only girl that is always here...how ironic..5 years ago i said.."this will all change someday..you all will leave 1 by 1.." and it happen 5 year later...

no one ever take what i said for seriously..they think i m just bullshitting...now you guys saw what happen?? people part way..but if they are real..they will leave a shadow behind for you to remember...but if it werent you will never even remember them...

i would like to point out..sometime i m not realli a sociable person...but then again i m not a realli noticeable guy until someone try to point out " there someone dark over there.." well it was always like that...no one remembers...nor will they ever be...