i want the answer...

you know..i m happy that she finally give up on that guy (assuming she halfway i guess)...well yea i m happy..but the guy that she like is still not me..even though..i hinted her all along..i felt like a retard..talking to a stone...a stone that would not understand what you say or even show..until it get broken in the end...blaming everything..you during all this time..i never expected anything..i never expected a result from what i m doing...since i m doing it of my own free will..no one force me to...because i believe in miracle..that one day she would realize..that all along there a good guy around her..that always around her..that would not be mad at her..even if she did not follow any of that advice..and always forgive her...i dont know how many guy can tolerate all of it..i dont really know..there always a good guy around you...but you just chose not to accept that he existed..

you know i waited for you..all this while..you think i m not in pain watching you suffer guys after guys...i gave you advice..warning..you dont get any of it..instead you listen to the others who say the same thing as me...i dont mind..it that part about you that i like..i tolerated every other guys that you like..because that your choice..

wishing one day you would realize..that the guy you were looking for were all along here..right beside you..when you needed him..he always there..when you needed someone to talk to..he always..always there...even when it night he came flying for you...

he never say no..to you..to him..your are very precious gem..that he wanted..but he can never keep it..because no matter how hard he works..he can never get near the gem..not because it was too expensive...but because it was hard to look for it..because everytime he near it..it will be gone...but the owner/buyer was never him..for some reason...maybe it not his time yet to buy it..or maybe the gem just doesnt suit him..that it might be destined that he will never get that gem...and the gem just get bought and sold..but everytime he there to buy it..it was not there anymore...